Yourself. — February 24, 2016


“The person in life that you will always be with the most, is yourself. Because even when you are with others, you are still with yourself. When you wake up in the morning, you are with yourself; laying in bed at night, you are with yourself; walking down the street in the sunlight, you are with yourself.

What kind of person do you want to walk down the street with? What kind of person do you want to wake up in the morning with? What kind of person do you want to see at the end of the day before you fall asleep? Because that person is yourself, and it’s your responsibility to be that person you want to be with.

I know I want to spend my life with a person who knows how to let things go, who’s not full of hate, who’s able to smile and be carefree. So that’s who I have to be.”
(~C. JoyBell C.)

Thoughts. — February 17, 2016


  • How do you know you’re doing the right thing for yourself?
  • How do you know which choice to make?
  • Does anyone ever know if they are making the right choices or not?
  • I don’t think there’s anywhere in the world that I would want to be right now, that would even make me happy.
Just A List of (My) Flaws, NBD. — February 5, 2016

Just A List of (My) Flaws, NBD.

  • I feel overly needy with any type of relationship.
  • I feel highly insecure the majority of days.
  • I do not (know how to) respect other people’s needs and/or boundaries.
  • I have LOTS of trouble being verbally expressive (i.e. displays of affection with words).
  • I can be tactless.
  • I can be completely unaware of how my actions and behaviors affect others.
  • My thoughts move at an extremely fast pace (think bullet trains) that when I try to express them, others have trouble following my train of thought.
  • Sometimes, I say the complete opposite of what I mean because I feel too vulnerable.
  • I spend a lot of time being and feeling afraid that I do not take any risks or chances.
  • I can get easily overwhelmed and therefore, I shut down.
What I Want. (Part II) —

What I Want. (Part II)

Note: I wrote this 18 days ago. There will be a Part III soon enough. Just as soon as I figure my truths out and can formulate the feelings into words.

I want someone that values their time enough to plan ahead our dates and the time we spend together. Someone that knows that despite the busy lives we lead, we will always make time for each other because we care enough.

I want someone that is open-minded enough that not only shares their beliefs and opinions, but wants to have a channel of communication wide enough that concerns, worries, problems/issues, etc. can be talked about too, whenever they arise.

I want someone that welcomes and faces challenges head on. I understand that everything in life is work, but I want someone that is willing to put in an equal amount of work into the relationship because they want to and care so much to.

I want our relationship to be fun and playful and silly. I want jokes to fly all around us but when the going gets tough, no one goes.

I want us to be able to be alone, but together. Independent; two people making a unit.